DREAM

That was a pleasant evening with the reddish sky and breezy, everything differ in my view and the sun was hiding among light-white clouds, it was an arrangement to summon the moon to the dark stage of the night world. I was waiting for her, my love, at the beach with full of her memories in heart and rehearsed nostalgia to show you, and every second seemed to me like an era. I imagined the sun and moon as partners in romantic relationship while I was drawing her portrait in the sand. What a shock! the sand felt in love with her and I highly warned the sand “she is mine forever”, pity on me, I could not even realize that was just my imagination and I was on the peak of possessiveness. The lovable moment I met her is still alive in my little broken heart. I never expected that I would have Zara, who is so full of me and my soulmate, in my life and she is god’s gift to me.  one day evening, I was riding bike with my friends around my suburb, suddenly I felt someone passed me and saw my cute charming angel, Zara. For the first time I saw her, lost myself and felt in love with her and was not able to assume who was she and anything about her. At that moment, what I could do is that following her and attempted to talk to her “hi, I want to marry you wholeheartedly and begin my life with you” just said that and returned.  This was the question that was asked by my friends “how dare you ask a girl to get married at the first time saw her” and even I did not know the answer. I was completely mad about her and felt as floating in the sky with full of love. 

The next day I was at that place, where I saw Zara, and expecting her to come. She was coming on bicycle with her friends and she appeared to me like an angel coming close to me with boon. I was melting by sparkle from her eyes, and since that moment I had followed her even when she goes to the school and evening class. Oh god! How I forgot to describe my living statue, Zara, with pale skin, long silky black hair and pink lips. Although I attempted to talk to her many times, she never spoke to me and did not even look at me. I did not care about whether she is beautiful or not because love depends on the mind not on the beauty. At that second, I saw her, I realized that she was born for me and did not even worry about anything, such as, religion and caste even though in our culture, marriage was still based on religion and caste. Although I attempted to talk to her many times, she never spoke to me and did not even look at me. Sometimes it deeply hurt me. The days had been week and then months. One day I was waiting for her, but she did not come, my heart was broken, and I was highly emotional. I was unable to concentrate in anything, at that time I realized how much I love her. Fortunately, I saw one of her friends and asked, “what happened to Zara?”, “she does not have class today” she said with hesitation. After that, my heartbeat turned to normal. 

The next day she was coming from the school and no friends around her, so I supposed it is a great opportunity to talk to her, and followed her and said “I cannot wait anymore, want to know your response, otherwise I cannot exist in this world without you”. I could not control my tears falling and she cried as well and said “I love you too, I wanted to tell you it whenever I saw you, but I could not…”. I was speechless and on the peak of happiness…that was a feeling cannot be described by words. There was no one around us and even if so, I would not have bothered. Something changed within me, I did not take my eyes off her and know whether it was love or infatuation. My legs moved towards her; I did not know why I get nervous while being close to her. I touched her cheeks with my hands, but she did not object as well and could not look at my eyes. I just closed my eyes and kissed her, she smiled shyly. We spoke to each other with eyes, I wanted her to stay with me, but she had to go home and let her go home. Since that day we successfully continued our love journey with sweet moments and lovable fights. That day was our first-year anniversary. I was telling you my love story while waiting for her at the beach. I was here like the sky waiting for the moon. Even though we had been in relationship for one year, the emotions for her were newer than before I had. Suddenly someone touched my shoulder and I was shocked because I had no idea who was that; I turned around “oh Zara” and my face bloomed like the lotus that saw the sun. However, she was not as usual and there was no excitement or happiness on her face for meeting me, but I ignored that. Even though her appearance was normal as usual, she seemed to me like the most gorgeous girl I have ever seen, and, at that moment, I felt in my mind there was an intensive and unexplained connection between us and never wanted to lose her in my life. I said “you are always beautiful to me, but even more special in you today dear……  I want you to be mine forever and would give my life for you babe!”, but she did not look into my eyes. I noticed her crying and immediately tried to hold her hands in mental anguish with tears in my eyes, however, she walked away from me, not only physically but also mentally and unbeknownst to me, I just did follow her. She said “that is true that I was in love with you but now we are in the final situation of ending our love….it is never going to work anymore…….let’s break up, sorry!”, she did not even wait for my response Oh my god! my head rolled around, and I felt like my heart was exploding and moving “Zara…Zara… stop, what happened to you my sweetheart…whatever it is, I will stand for you and just tell me…. but do not leave me…. I cannot live without you…. you are my life and are in my soul… how can I survive without you…please do not go babe” I begged her. Her ruthless heart did not listen to me and she was going far away from me. I stood like a corpse without consciousness. “Oh…. no….. no….” I waked up from the bed. I was hardly sweating, and heartbeat was high. It was a dream and the memory to be forgotten. Even though it was a bad dream, the tears on my cheek said the truth that she left me two years ago and I still remember her in my heart. 

By Kaya